So worth posting...

I had been wondering what it was that I experienced a few weeks ago. It was like a wave of FEELING swept over me. For so long, I hadn't had any true life flowing through me and no matter how hard I tried, I still felt almost ... dead. Some things would tear me up, sure, and for good reason, like saying good bye to friends, but I don't mean those kind of [sad] emotions... I mean emotions in general. The feeling and awareness that you're alive. Maybe some of you have heard me mention before that I "don't feel like a real person" ... that's changed now, somehow. And until today, I had been calling it, this thing that happened on October 25, 2008, "the transformation"... but I read something today that a good friend of mine had posted on her blog... it's from an anonymous writer. Chew on it.

12 SIGNS OF A SPIRITUAL AWAKENING

1. An increased tendency to let things happen rather than make them happen.
2. Frequent attacks of smiling.
3. Feelings of being connected with others and nature.
4. Frequent overwhelming episodes of appreciation.
5. A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than from fears based on past experience.
6. An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.
7. A loss of ability to worry.
8. A loss of interest in conflict.
9. A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others.
10. A loss of interest in judging others.
11. A loss of interest in judging self.
12. Gaining the ability to love without expecting anything in return.

- Unknown -


That's exactly how I feel. I feel like something inside me, I guess it's really my spirit has just woken up all of a sudden.

And the things that mattered before just don't matter anymore.