On Tuesday, (this is actually what I wanted to post yesterday but did not)...but I wanted to say that I am convinced that the Bible is ALIVE and that God really speaks to you through it if you open your heart to it... by that I mean open it EXPECTING God to talk.
Tuesday, I was kinda busy and was feeling a little disconnected and uninspired for some reason, and was feeling guilty, AGAIN, for stuff that has happened. At the end of the day I realized I hadn't picked up my Bible, as I had been, since 5:30 in the morning. So as much as I wanted to go to bed, I opened it up to 1 Peter, which is what I'm currently reading with a friend of mine in Germany, and started reading... I got bounced to Isaiah 53, but my eyes fell on the page next to it, to Isaiah 55, in which I had circled verse 3, "Come to me with your ears wide open. Listen, and you will find life." ... I kept reading. "My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts," I read... "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine,"......."My ways and thoughts are higher than yours," God said to me through these verses.
This means a lot... in recent weeks I have slowly been realizing that I have spent a significant amount of time expecting God to bless me in a specific way... but I expected him to bless me in the way I had pictured in my head... BLIND, I was, indeed. I spend so much time searching for something specific, messing around, doing the wrong things, that I COMPLETELY MISS the gift God had set in front of me. This is relevant in many areas of my life right now; I can't even begin to list them! So my prayer lately has been that God help me think like Him better, instead of like I would like to think. My past essentially proves that I stink at thinking on my own, lol... I want to see people through His eyes, shed my old expectations and pre-programmed agendas and focus instead on what HE would want to bless me with, not what I find for myself, which, let's face it, hasn't been good stuff.
Now, though I feel like I'm getting yet another chance to do things the right way. Praise be, yo.
My eyes continued to drift... Isaiah 54:4.. "Fear not, you will no longer live in shame. Don't be afraid; there is no more disgrace for you. You will no longer remember the shame of your youth."
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Weight loss news: I am down to a solid 134! Only 4 more lbs to go!!!
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Today's Workouts: CP remix w/ gloves + booty sculpt/abs w/ 8 & 5 lb weights
Breakfast: 1 banana before workout, after workout pita pizza with sundried tomato pesto (which has a lot of salt, i noticed today... better cut back!), part-skim ricotta, 4 small pepperonis, 5-6 sliced cherry tomatoes, sprinkle of mozzarella, oregano, garlic + spinach leaf salad w/ light Italian
Lunch: MAN i hate terribly today... the dentist visit depressed me a little... I couldn't eat my sandwich, so I had a box of Barnum's circus animal crackers instead... 240 calories
Dinner: the sandwich, once the numbness finally wore off... two thin slices salami, one whole wheat bagel (180 cal), 1 wedge laughing cow cheese with herbs, 1 slice havarti cheese (we're out of Gouda, dude-a)
Dessert/snacks: after breakfast, strawberry ice cream sandwich, and an entire snickers bar..... AHHHHHHHHH!
Water: so far so good
Daily Vitamins: check
Nightly Vitamins:
Tuesday, I was kinda busy and was feeling a little disconnected and uninspired for some reason, and was feeling guilty, AGAIN, for stuff that has happened. At the end of the day I realized I hadn't picked up my Bible, as I had been, since 5:30 in the morning. So as much as I wanted to go to bed, I opened it up to 1 Peter, which is what I'm currently reading with a friend of mine in Germany, and started reading... I got bounced to Isaiah 53, but my eyes fell on the page next to it, to Isaiah 55, in which I had circled verse 3, "Come to me with your ears wide open. Listen, and you will find life." ... I kept reading. "My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts," I read... "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine,"......."My ways and thoughts are higher than yours," God said to me through these verses.
This means a lot... in recent weeks I have slowly been realizing that I have spent a significant amount of time expecting God to bless me in a specific way... but I expected him to bless me in the way I had pictured in my head... BLIND, I was, indeed. I spend so much time searching for something specific, messing around, doing the wrong things, that I COMPLETELY MISS the gift God had set in front of me. This is relevant in many areas of my life right now; I can't even begin to list them! So my prayer lately has been that God help me think like Him better, instead of like I would like to think. My past essentially proves that I stink at thinking on my own, lol... I want to see people through His eyes, shed my old expectations and pre-programmed agendas and focus instead on what HE would want to bless me with, not what I find for myself, which, let's face it, hasn't been good stuff.
Now, though I feel like I'm getting yet another chance to do things the right way. Praise be, yo.
My eyes continued to drift... Isaiah 54:4.. "Fear not, you will no longer live in shame. Don't be afraid; there is no more disgrace for you. You will no longer remember the shame of your youth."
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Weight loss news: I am down to a solid 134! Only 4 more lbs to go!!!
_______________________________________
Today's Workouts: CP remix w/ gloves + booty sculpt/abs w/ 8 & 5 lb weights
Breakfast: 1 banana before workout, after workout pita pizza with sundried tomato pesto (which has a lot of salt, i noticed today... better cut back!), part-skim ricotta, 4 small pepperonis, 5-6 sliced cherry tomatoes, sprinkle of mozzarella, oregano, garlic + spinach leaf salad w/ light Italian
Lunch: MAN i hate terribly today... the dentist visit depressed me a little... I couldn't eat my sandwich, so I had a box of Barnum's circus animal crackers instead... 240 calories
Dinner: the sandwich, once the numbness finally wore off... two thin slices salami, one whole wheat bagel (180 cal), 1 wedge laughing cow cheese with herbs, 1 slice havarti cheese (we're out of Gouda, dude-a)
Dessert/snacks: after breakfast, strawberry ice cream sandwich, and an entire snickers bar..... AHHHHHHHHH!
Water: so far so good
Daily Vitamins: check
Nightly Vitamins:
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