chapter 2

Read through Colossians today.. one of my faves. one of my favorite verses is in chapter 2 ... "Let your roots grow down into [Christ], and let your lives be built on him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught, and you will overflow with thankfulness."

I read the whole book, and while, at three pages, it was painstakingly long... but every time i read through it, chapter 2 sticks out to me. every word.

Here in chapter 2 we are reminded things like how GOD made us alive in Christ... that he took away our sins by nailing them to the cross, that all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge lie hidden in Christ. I want to spend my life looking for those treasures! That God's plan is mysterious. and that that the body of Christ grows as God nourishes it,...and in Christ lives all the fullness of God in a human body.

and that to be made alive, we also died with Christ. Sometimes I feel dead, so burdened, so tired. but thats not what this means. we died "to our sin" with Christ. Somehow, God looks at us and sees no sin. Something about that blood. I can't really get my mind around that.... but if Christ really did this, if Christ really did all these things, I guess I'll trust Him.

Whenever I start thinking about what it really means to put my trust in Christ and this mysterious plan, my heart kind of starts beating a little bit faster and my limbs feel weak. Like I want to jump out of my chair and run somewhere. I guess I'll run towards him.

I may need to be pushed sometimes. but I'm going to keep running. Whatever this "body" is that was made new because he died, it wants to go back to Him. I am compelled; I can't get away from him. And yes, i have tried to get away. Its a life of constant renewal in God.

and like in verse 7, the more i get to know Him, the more he rummages around my heart and soul, the more uncomfortable he makes me, the more it truly does make me overflow with thankfulness. Still, I'm growing roots into Him, and I am trying, striving, struggling to build my life on Him. i'd like to say that doing so will be safe, but i know its not. i'm not bothered by it, though. its not safe, but I trust him. i'm not safe, but i'm free.