Hi. Well, it's 11:26pm and I actually am ready to go to bed, but as I was brushing and flossing (flossing is definitely one of the most awkward and unattractive things there is to do, lol... but whatev) ......some song lyrics came to mind. From one of my favorite songs-- "None but Jesus"... i listened to that song today. it always pulls at me.
Here are the words...its just a beautiful song, words and all and you can listen here
In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that you are God
In the secret of your presence
I know there I am restored
When you call I won't refuse
Each new day, again I'll choose
There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise
In the chaos, in confusion
I know you're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do your will
When you call I won't delay
This my song through all my days
There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise
I am yours and you are mine
I am yours and you are mine
I am yours and you are mine
I am yours
All my delight is in you Lord
All of my hope
All of my strength
All my delight is in you Lord
Forevermore
I wrote the words down-- "I am restored". I circled them...and circled them again...and again...and another time. I AM RESTORED... but as I went to brush my teeth I asked myself, what does that even mean? how does God do that? under what conditions does God do that? Why does He do it?
Here's what I think it means.
It means none of yesterday's sin and sorrow matter anymore. It means that each day I wake up, he, Jesus, is there welcoming me, telling me, reminding me how much He loves me, and that WANTS me, for everything I am... and that it doesn't matter where I've been, who I was, or what I did while I was that person in that place... he won't leave me. ever.
What else does he tell me? that I don't have to DO anything to earn his love, and that I don't have to constantly fear that I'll lose that love. that he doesn't love me because he has to, because he feels obligated to, but because he wants to.
...he's not indifferent to me, he's not passive in my struggles and triumphs, he's not disappointed in me, he absolutely delights in me. He won't give me the cold shoulder or the silent treatment, he doesn't have mood swings, he doesn't hold grudges. He's available. he's inviting. he doesn't curse under his breath at his child wanting to spend time with him.
He's not what I'm used to.
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i think its amazing that we think on almost exactly the same level, except you believe in jesus and i dont at all. it inspirse faith in humnanity to overcome difference, or at least it should haha
Hey - it's a good reminder, what you wrote here. He delights in his children and doesn't curse under His breath at our desire to draw near to Him. That's a hard truth to understand, personally.
Love you Cait. <3
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