Last night while I was lying in bed I decided to start reminding myself of all the stupid things I did when I was in high school... I mean REALLY stupid things. REALLY REALLY stupid things that I had forgotten about, blocked out of my memory until last night, pretty much. And I don't know why I just remembered them last night of all times... kinda silly...
On a brighter note, I am totally rocking the power yoga and pilates... yesterday I did the MTV power yoga workout (55 minutes of sweat right there) and I got frustrated with myself because I couldnt do the full backbend/upward bow/full wheel pose... i cursed at myself and said I couldnt do it... but then I got to thinking, why CAN'T I do it? so I paused the DVD and tried, and I couldnt get my head off the floor, couldn't straightend my arms... so I pressed play again and tried to forget about it... well a minute later I pressed pause again and really focused... i placed my hands, did some deep breathing, inhaled one more time and PUSHED... and I DID IT! It was an amazing feeling, and totally wacky to be in that position. I lowered down and did it again :-D it was too cool.
verse for the day... found it a few days ago in my reading...
For I have come to call not those who think they are righteous, but those who know they are sinners. matthew 9:13
i just feel like a complete moron today, the other night i submitted an application for an internship at Deutsche Bank in Frankfurt, someplace I dont want to live anyway,but it sounds like a great 2-3 month long internship so I applied... and submitted a resume on which I completely forgot to finish the objective, DAMN i'm an idiot... so i am trying to forget about that... maybe its a sign... maybe they wont notice and I'll get offered the position anyway, lol... but I cant let it get me down.
Also I am soooo doubting my ability to get any kind of job on the education i have, lol... I just dont think I have learned much of anything to cause any company in Germany to have a reason to give me a job. Germans have way more credentials than I do, except I am good at customer service and writing...
but who am i kidding... i hate worrying about this stuff all the time, why can't I trust God more? why do I try to rely on myself all the time? I obviously stink at it.
But at least I can do a full back bend.... thats something, right?
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